I realized something about myself the other day. I am not a very patient person.
No, I don't mean that I get aggravated waiting in long lines at the sub shop, or shout curses at slow people on the road. Rather, I'm impatient in my life.
Part of this stems from my determination. When something needs to get done (other than homework, and the like...) I want to do it right away. If I need to get something done, a form filled out, etc. I want to do it immediately. I don't want to have to wait for it. However, God seems to not like this very much. He's really big into making me wait. Whether it's for an answer to a prayer, provision for a need, or simply a desire in my heart, God seems to like to show me how His timing is certainly not my own.
The most recent example is regarding my trip to Togo and Ghana, Africa, this May. It was not until the past week that He revealed to me just how exactly I was going to meet the $3,000 need for my portion of the trip. Mind you, I have been working on this trip since last Autumn. Another instance was with my car. For the entire summer, we had been searching for a car for me. However, it was not until 3 days before school that we found a car for me. Talk about a major worry situation!
These situations are the ones that frustrate me the most! I want to get these things done right away, but God says, "No. In MY time, I will accomplish it."
There are still many things that I am waiting on... Some patiently, others... well, I still struggle. Though, I suppose that is what it means to be human. We try and try and try to be like God, but still fall so short. Thank GOD for grace so amazing!
For now,
D